Hello, Horny Readers! Most of the playmates I meet have always known they were kinky. What ever sexual kinks they enjoy, they report early memories of being interested, if not aroused, by that kink. But more and more, I’m learning that some kinky people only recognize and embrace their sexual kinks later in life. I’ve heard it often enough that I’ve started to ask them why they thought this was. The replies I’ve gotten thus far have been intriguing! Here’s a couple of examples*:
Sexual Kinks Can be Born From Frustration or Longing
Ed, crossdresser name Delilah, has always had a weakness for everything feminine. It used to be a desire projected onto women (his lovers, his choice in porn, etc.). He loved seeing wives and girlfriends in the full trappings of traditional femininity, and perhaps old-fashioned femininity most of all (girdles, stockings with garters, lacy bras, corsets, etc.). These didn’t have to be fancy–sometimes the plain old white polyester blend girdle and flesh-tone stockings are sexier to Delilah than all the colors and intricate designs.
Delilah is married, and has been for 40 years. His wife knew from the start how much he loved it when women wore those types of things, and for a while she indulged him. For a while, she tolerated and even sometimes liked how he’d participate in the trappings of feminine grooming. She liked the pretty lingerie and nighties he’d buy her. She was never short of things designed to keep her soft, make her smell good, or keep her in the ultimate of feminine style.
But after a while, she got tired of indulging Delilah’s tastes. Delilah insisted that just because his wife might dress up like that, or let him watch her participate in feminine grooming rituals, it didn’t need to lead to sex, but his wife just wasn’t interested in making the effort anymore, whether the intent was foreplay or not.
Delilah really began to miss the look of slim legs in stockings, the feel of feminine fabric under his fingertips, and the experience of floury scented steam wafting out of the bathroom, knowing how soft and fragrant it was making his wife.
One day, he was rummaging through some of his wife’s things, and came across a pair of silk stockings he’d purchased her, the kind with the seam up the back, that she’d never even taken out of the box. He pulled them out wistfully, and rubbed them against his cheek. Then, like a bolt from the blue, the idea came to him–if he shaved his legs and put them on, would he be able to enjoy stocking-ed legs even if they were his? Maybe he could look down at them, or put them up in the air, and pretend they belonged to someone else.
At first, he didn’t believe it would work, but the idea made him chuckle, so he tried it anyway. And guess what? Well, you know what. From the thighs down, he became someone else, and it aroused and satisfied him more than he could have ever suspected. Soon, he was removing more and more body hair, and buying grooming products and make up for himself. He bought wigs and learned to style them. He took the lingerie he’d purchased for his wife that would fit, and branched out into a sizable collection of his own. He probably has more shoes, bras, and panties than his wife at this point, and when he dresses up as Delilah, he gets to enjoy the slinky, pampered woman he’s missed.
He may have always had a kink for lingerie, but deprivation turned it into crossdressing.
Sexual Kinks Can Come From Exploring Porn
Bryan always identified as straight. He’s always done well with the ladies, and has always been very horny for them. Well, he’s always been very horny in general according to him, but women were always the focus of his erotic fantasies. He’s always supplemented his sex life with lots of masturbation, and came of age just as the internet was becoming ubiquitous. That meant that porn became more and more of a tool for supplementing his masturbation. Internet porn is a literal candy store for many of those with high libidos, and Bryan’s high libido quickly turned his regular masturbation habit into a compulsive masturbation habit (that’s an issue with which I’m helping him. *giggle*). Soon, he began to prefer masturbating to sex with flesh and blood women, and always accompanied by porn.
(Readers, let it be noted that this is one of the many reasons it’s useful to have a dominant woman manage the frequency and method of masturbation you enjoy. So many males simply can’t keep things under control when their cock gets hard!)
Anyway, as with many addictions, over the years, Bryan began to need more and more extreme and taboo subject matter to give him the same bang for his buck. He would also fixate on certain themes, and consume everything he could find in HD. For a while, I suppose you could say cocksucking porn was one of his sexual kinks, and the more hardcore, the better. He told himself he was changing places with the male in each scene, living vicariously through that polished cock pumping in and out of a feminine throat, but then he realized that it was the cock upon which he was fixating.
I’m sure it was pretty innocuous at first, related to living vicariously as I mention, but the more his own orgasm synced up with the orgasm experienced by the big, hard, spit-glazed dick on the screen, the more he began to anticipate which moves and techniques produced it. He began to urge the actress to polish it this way or stroke it that way, as if she could hear him. He began to admonish her to lick and suck the heavy, low-hanging balls filled with cum that he couldn’t wait to see spew out. He began to think about how that throbbing dong must feel, sliding over her tongue, how sexy her submission looked as she allowed him to direct and control her mouth and head. He began to not only think about it, but to wonder about it, and wonder whether or not the massive load of cream blasting out all over her face felt better than his did as it painted his chest and rolled down over his fingers.
He began to wonder how it tasted, and gave his own a try.
He found that the taste of cum heightened his own enjoyment, or at least breaking the taboo of tasting it. Then he wondered if all cum tasted the same. If all cocks felt the same as his.
He began to think about feeling it for himself.
And thus, with a few more leaps from erotic lily pad to erotic lily pad, a formerly-straight man became a voracious cocksucker, 20 years after he watched his first porn.
I suppose you may have noticed that in both these stories, technically one kink lead to another. But what interested Me was that before the blossoming of the sexual kinks in both these stories, the sexuality of both subjects would have been considered mainstream to most, and veered decidedly in the direction of the taboo.
So, add to My body of casual knowledge, readers. Did you come upon your sexual kinks later in life, with little to no inkling of what would become so arousing and satisfying to you? Or were there hints early on? Please feel free to share in the comments section, or in private if you’re shy!
*names changed to protect the debauched
I think for me some kinks, like cuckolding were in place for along time, while other kinks came along later….Often in kinky play with Mistress, like panties and chastity. On the whole, as we older many of us take on a Carpe Diem approach… If it feels good, or pleases my Mistress, why not give it a try?
Carpe Diem! Yes, cuckie, I’ve definitely heard that before from one or two of those referenced in this blog post. Good point!
For me it started in middle school wherein the school bus home a girl would pick out a guy on bus sit next to him and put makeup/perfume/lipstick on him. It happened a few times as I got turned on seeing her do this to them. One day I was the guy she did this to where she put blush/perfume/lipstick on me and it caught me off guard but deep down I’m glad it happened. I couldn’t move as I was next to window and she had way with me. Going home trying to remove makeup was difficult as I was in kitchen and not knowing I was underneath mistletoe my step mom who was 31and hot put her arms around me and gave me lipstick kisses on my cheeks. She smelled perfume and noticed blush/lipstick on me. I told her girl on bus did this to me. She giggled and said I look so cute and adorable. She then sat on my lap gave me more lipstick kisses on my cheeks/told me to go to bathroom to see lipstick marks on my cheeks but not to wipe it off. I had to help her everyday after school if I didn’t want anyone to know. I did as told and this happened everyday. I was her cream puff. I them snuck in her room tried in her lipsticks/perfumes/bras/dresses. She knew as she gave me smile.
1998 is where it went all down hill as I wanted to do laundry but both machines were full and as I walked out my roommates girlfriends bra was in basket and I caught that out of corner of my eye. I tried it on went to bath room and there was tube of lipstick and put it on my lips then went to room to get off. Since then I got hooked into crossdressing buying bras/panties/dresses/lipsticks/perfumes/
lotions/leggings/yoga pants/heels/boots. It’s so muvh better wearing and dressing in women’s clothes/lingerie. I’ve recently came out to my massuse and she was so supportive of this. She asked if I liked guys and I said no. I told her it makes me happy and it’s who I am. She had me repeat this over & over. I’m 45 and I’m not going to worry about what anyone thinks. I do this for fun and enjoyment. I’d love to have my massuse take me as her cream puff. She’s started using women’s cherry blossom lotion on me for massages and told me it smells great on me and to keep using it. She said I’ll smell pretty all the time and I can think of her when I wear it as she uses it. Only thing is she’s married and I could be her cockold sissy now that I came out to her about wearing women’s clothes. She even sent me out shopping for her with her purse alone. Other sissies/mistresses said she has turned me into her sissy by doing this. I’ve told her I’ll do whatever she asks and wants. It’s really happened where she has her nails dug into me with no intention of letting me go and I don’t want get to, She has control over me and I’m glad that it’s happened
petey, thanks for taking the time to write all of that out! I’m glad My post inspired you to share!
Miss Rachel, great post and great question. I know for me the older I get the more kinky I get. I suspect it was always there, but like a seed that grows into a flower it needed to be nourished. Or perhaps like dominoes lined up in a row, the first had to fall, then another , then another….to the point that now I find what turns me on is not what turned me on 20 years ago. In fact, if you asked me 20 years ago if I would be into what I am into now….I would have said hell no. I guess it’s kind of like following the hyperlinks on a porn page…you are not always sure where it will take you but you can’t help getting excited at what it might be anyway. I have come to realize that much like a drug, it takes more and more to give me that same “sexual high”. I know that the combination of the internet (with porn) and phonesex have played a role in my transformation. The internet provides me to access to so much more freely available eritca. One can’t elp but explore and read about it. The mistress / phonesex have also helped guide me along this path through the power of suggestion, coercion, etc. What can I say, when the dick gets hard almost anything can be made to sound exciting and sexually fulfilling. And a good mistress knows how to take advantage of this and leverage it to push the boundaries of a stroker boy. lol
That’s a great point, about the “sexual high”. Oh, and I know exactly what you mean about the way a skilled Mistress can take advantage of a stroker boy, to get him to want things and do things all because his cock is hard! *giggle*
I’d like to state that it is a brilliant blog about frustration leading to more daringly expressed kinks. Easier to stick to by progressing age. I have needed LDW for decades now. To supplement my sex life. Especially cuckold facets turn me on. Cheating in detail, oh, wow. I need it. And here all is permitted, almost all! Great to read enchantrix Rachel, thank you.
Well thank you! That is rich praise! I’m so glad that you feel LDW is just the playground for exploration that you needed! And yes, cuckolding is HOT!
Yes Mistress Rachel i crossdressed later in life but am in sort of purge mode accepting fact i am an older man with a tiny penis that doesn’t want to be an old woman. But when i dressup i look 30 something. I wish i could transform and be as beautiful as you or Alexis i would have my cock removed if i could turn out as awesome as you Ladies
Well April Nicole, it sure does sound as if you need to make peace with the passage of time, as much as you do with your sissy desires.
I have recently flipped back to sissy mode in an explosion