Could you be a gay boy hiding in a bi-curious boy’s shadow?

You know horny readers, I talk to a lot of boys who describe themselves as bi-curious.  Some of them may very well be just that, meaning that in general, their attachments and attractions both emotional and physical have always been with women, but once in a while, they fantasize about cock.  Maybe the impulse isn’t strong enough for them to ever act on it, and they’re content to simply imagine, but for some boys, the “curiosity” just won’t go away.

Usually they’ve been thinking about men, about sucking cock and being fucked, for as long as they can remember, and while they’re still attracted to women, they can’t get the idea of being a ball-draining bottom boy out of their minds.  Whether they can function with women or not, horny readers, I tend to think these boys are a little bit more than bi-curious, and maybe even a little bit more than bisexual.  I think some of them may simply be gay, and I love being present for the epiphany that occurs when they realize that!

Remember, homosexuality is different than faggotry.

At least in My world it is.  Homosexuality is what we’re discussing here, though it’s certainly possible to be a gay faggot, or a gay sissy faggot, but that doesn’t mean the terms are interchangeable.  The difference is one’s emotions.  Homosexuality involves who you fall in love with, or at least who you want to have relationships with, as well as who stirs your loins.  Faggotry is devotion simply to cock, regardless of to whom that cock is attached, and yes, some boys who start out bi-curious also end up being faggots.  But I’ve had fun with boys for whom the cock was simply the key to opening up to a longing that involved emotions as well as the loins.

How does a guy go from bi-curious to gay?

Let Me explain this by telling you a little story.  I had a friend, a man older than Me, who I met through local BDSM circles.  He was always there with his boyfriend, and I knew them as a couple.  I was surprised to learn that he hadn’t come out of the closet until he was 40 years old, and it wasn’t out of fear.  He simply didn’t realize that he was gay until he had his first sexual experience with another man!

I was skeptical about that, because I’m used to the more popular narrative that a boy has always known, even when he didn’t have the words to describe it.  But this gentleman fantasized about both men and women when he masturbated, and dated women in the small town in which he grew up, because that was simply what he thought he was supposed to do.  But he always thought the sex he had with them was simply kind of “meh”.  Overrated.  Even the orgasms he experienced were humdrum. He just thought he might be a bit asexual, and that his fantasies about men were just kink.  Keep in mind that this was before the internet.

When the internet came along, he stumbled upon some gay porn.  He said his whole body flushed, and he not only got the hardest erection he’d ever had in his life, but experienced an ache in his prostate, which he didn’t even know the location of before.  He began to experiment with fingering himself, then with toys, and then thought he might try sucking cock.  He met someone from Craigslist, and although kissing and body contact isn’t the norm for a lot of hookups, it just seemed natural to him to fall into this stud’s arms and swap spit.  Suddenly he was moving with another body as if it was preordained. And when he wrapped his mouth around the other man’s cock, he himself came almost immediately.

Suddenly this sex thing that had before seemed mildly pleasurable but anticlimactic was like a nuclear bomb going off inside of him.  He’d finally discovered the sexual person he was meant to be.  Sure, he could function with a woman, and even enjoy himself somewhat, but when he compared the sensations and the feedback in his mind and body, well, with regard to women, he felt the equivalent of “why bother?”

You see, I think proportion is the key.  I know there are those who might say, “If he can get it up for a woman, he’s not gay.”  To that I say, what about the many many gay men who got married to women and had children before it was feasible to be out?  Just because you can make something work, it doesn’t mean it’s your ideal.  Lots of boys who think they’re only bi-curious when they begin to experiment learn that they can function with women, but they can’t live without cock, and what’s more, that the emotional component of the sexual experience is just as intense as the physical.

Wouldn’t you say that’s pretty gay?