Hello, Horny Readers! I guess I’m on a bit of a kick, musing about the different phenomena I’ve noticed in My time as a Femdomme. This week, it occurred to Me how many of My playmates have virtually no interest in women sexually. At the same time, the presence of a woman is important in their fantasies. And, let’s face it–they’re calling Me. I consider these playmates closet gay.
Why?
For the most part, their public personas are straight. It could be that they’re really bi, but most of those to whom I refer have given up on sex with women altogether–pussy free. As noted in the linked blog post, sometimes this is out of circumstance. Sometimes it’s out of necessity. But, I’ve met many men in face to face life, as well as in fantasy, who could probably function with a woman if pressed, and may even enjoy it, but whose loins and thoughts are almost exclusively cock-oriented.
So, why is a woman present in their cock fantasies?
If they are closet gay, why is the presence of a woman so important?
One long-time playmate comes to mind who might shed some light. His fantasies often involve the presence of a woman. She’s usually watching him get fucked, in his mind, as proof that he is gay. He wants to be able to look her in the eye in the midst of gay anal sex as a way of saying, “there’s no turning back from this. There’s nothing that a woman can offer me that tops this feeling. I don’t care if you see me taking cock like this. In fact, I want you to see me take it, so that you know that you and I are no longer swimming in the same sexual pool.”
Perhaps it’s a defensive measure. Many men who identify as bisexual find that a lot of women don’t want to date a cock-sucking anal bottom. Just the same, the deeper this playmate has gone into his fantasy, and the more it changes his life, the more insistent he is that he is gay. Not bi. Gay. Backing up on a cock in front of a woman will only make it official.
Closet gay out of necessity?
Some men remain in the closet because the communities and families from which they come would not allow them to be out of it. Not without losing those relationships. The situation with My long-term playmate above is heavily informed by this. That’s a practical and not-very-sexy reality for many, but a reality just the same. But gay men, especially closeted ones, have long benefited from the presence and listening ear of a fag hag, even a Femdomme fag hag.
Then there’s the sexual humiliation addict. He might start out as bisexual by nature, or as a feature of his submission. From there, a dominant woman can convince him that he really has no business sleeping with women anymore at all. Especially if he has a small penis. In that case, it can be intoxicating to be in sexual situations (with the right cocksucker training and anal training) where he can’t disappoint anyone.
A peripheral note: closet gay, or a secret faggot?
I, for one, differentiate between homosexuality and faggotry. My coerced bi trainees will probably be familiar with this fact. A short version of the explanation is that homosexuality involves emotions, and attraction to the whole man, not just his cock. Faggotry involves mostly or even only cock, and submission to it. But 1.) the line between the two is admittedly blurry, and 2.) I tend to concede to the terminology used by the closet gay play-toy. Many describe themselves as gay, and seem attached to that specific designation.
Furthermore, I’ve played with more than one cock slut who started out swearing up and down that it was only the cock they were after. Then they found one particular cock that fucked the cum out of them so well that they were induced to add kissing, making out, and cuddling in the afterglow to the experience. Suddenly they’re catching feelings!
Go figure! *giggle*
So, do you consider yourself “secretly gay”, or even just flat-out gay? If so, what brings you to this domain of powerful Femmes?
Do share in the comments! And if you need a listening ear or willing participant for your gay fantasies, feel free to get in touch!
xoxo
Miss Rachel, Femdomme fag hag!
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P.S.: If you’d like to hear Me read this post, please feel free to press play below!
I don’t have the specific desire to be watched by a woman while having gay sex, but I do have a strong desire to tell a woman about it—one who I know is safe and accepting of me. And this does seem to have something to do with having kept my sexuality repressed all my life. While I don’t find myself attracted to women sexually, I do love them. And some deep part of me longs for that acceptance of my true self from them. The conversations I’ve had with you over the phone have been cathartic and arousing because I always have kept so much buried deep down. Unlike any woman I know, you let me be myself and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Wow, that was very sweet of you to say! Thank you for sharing! And yes, a good distinction between woman as confidante, and woman present in the fantasy. Some gay men, closeted or not, want one, some the other, some both, and some neither!
I would say I’m more bi…than gay….But i would LOVE to have a Mistress like you watch or “coerce’ me to suck in front of her….such bliss!
Of course you’re bi, princess! Inexorably drawn to the Women of whom you are permanently unworthy. We know that you know that if you can’t please Us with your cute little clitty, you can please the cocks who can, in gratitude of that fact! *giggle*
Absolutely amazing post, thanks Ms Rachel, Your so right there is such a fine line between the 3 profiles You posted, it would not be a stretch for me to fit in any of the categories you mentioned, I would certainly identify as bi because i still love the touch and feel and looks of a girl for sure, but being so under endowed, im not sure if i could ever satisfy her with my equipment below !! giggles !! but I have always loved to talk with girls such as Yourself about my fag dreams etc always thrilling !! mostly stripper girls, they always lend me their ears when needed, being in the closet !! its hard to trust just any girl !! but would be nice !! thanks again xoxos
Wonderful, violet! Thank you for sharing your take with Me! Somehow I think that sissies are a little bit different in the dynamic I described, and I thought about taking about them (I differentiate because I’m not sure sissies can be considered “gay men”–unless they self-identify as such), but thought also that the post might be getting confusing enough as it was!
Awesome, I thought You described everything perfectly, a little touch of everything sexy !! very thrilling !! I have always thought so called fag hag girls were so awesome, even if I call myself bi, wish I had a few girls like that I could confide in for sure, even though I love confiding here to all you Awesome ladies !!
I was going to list my favorite famous fag hags, but dont want to get in trouble here !! thought it would be fun but we all know some of them im sure !!
Why would you get in trouble? Post away! Especially if they’re Femdomme fag hags!
“Faggotry involves mostly or even only cock, and submission to it” – I agree completely, Miss Rachel, but surely by the same token, there must be straight, bi and gay faggotry, depending on the underlying feelings. (And those feelings might change over time, with the men you describe as after a time “catching feelings” as examples.) I expect some men of all stripes can be turned on by worshiping cock (and balls – don’t forget the balls!) and that these are the faggots we are looking for!
Well of course there is, Tea Bag. 🙂 That was pretty much the point of My explanation regarding the differentiation I tend to make between the two. You don’t have to be gay to be a faggot, and in fact, the two are distinct in My book, though they can occur in tandem!
Thanks for reading, and commenting! Hope you enjoyed!
Well lets see, some of my favs r Madonna ,Liz taylor, Lady Gaga ,my hopefuls r reece witherspoon ,newer ones fav Taylor Swift ,maybe Kim K, Katy Perry,not sure if any r femme domme maybe Katy Perry could be please add to the list lol !!
*giggle* Thank you violet!
Holy Cow!!! It’s like you got into my head when you write this post. Every point you made hit home with me. I don’t know where to begin. The big issue with me is gay or bi. A lot of the dilemma is internal struggle from your above mentioned factors, such as societal pressures, family expectations, etc. A failed marriage didn’t help. Although we weren’t right for each other on multiple levels Add on to that the fact she cheated with a hung bull. I’ve always felt inadequate with my penis size. That didn’t help. And then again, it helped tremendously for my humiliation and cuckold fantasies. As I read your definitions of gay and faggotry, I feel I fall into the faggot column, at least right now. But, as you said, all it takes is one good ass fucking and pure physical desires could turn into mental and emotional desires. You’ve given me a lot to ponder. Thank you so much!!!!
My pleasure GBFF! I’m thrilled that you found My post edifying (and perhaps a bit titillating as well)!
Thank you for your visit, and your comment!
Love and so identify with this piece. It’s another great one. Being another Closet Gay / Secret Faggot this falls right into my little wheelhouse.
The idea of having a woman watch or even participate in another man using me confirming I’m a Faggot is one of my Top Turn ons. I love the idea of being a woman’s Gay BFF who encourages my Faggotry.
Though I don’t (and haven’t so far) needed to have a woman present when hooking up with man it does add a higher level of hotness.
Thank you so much once again for your vote of confidence, Stephanie, and for taking the time to read and comment! And thanks for sharing on Twitter!
Ms Rachel!
What a fantastic post! It is a fascinating aspect of closeted gay / bi or “faggy” males whereas they seek out female companionship to explore their secret desires. To some it seems to be counter intuitive! If you want dick, males have dick, go to males. Right?
I think it’s a testament to the power Females have!
In someways , their motivators for engaging us(vs a male) are rooted in basic human need.
Regardless of their kink, or predilections everyone has a need to be wanted, needed ,desired and accepted “for who they are”. They also need a safe place to “be”. Women can and often do represent and offer all of those things.
May seem strange when it comes to kinks like Humiliation, those operators are still in force. But, they are.
Thanks for this post! See you around the Empire, sexy!
What a gracious comment, Miss Erika! You are so right–especially about the desire to have a place just to “be”. I think the fact that Women are not their primary sexual interest makes it easier to be vulnerable with Us, as there is less to lose, less ego at stake. xoxo
This audio is exactly me. I am a closeted crossdressing cocksucking bottom faggot and I only want to have sex with men. I would love for my wife to cuckold me and she deserves happiness and pleasure, especially since we haven’t had sex in almost 2 years. Your audio describes me exactly. I’ve been sucking cock for many years but only getting fucked for the past 2 years. I never considered myself “gay” and always described myself as “bi”. However, it’s been 2 years now and I have come to accept that I may be “gay”. It doesn’t bother me anymore to describe myself that way and I have come to accept it and embrace it.
Mistress Rachel, your audios really speak to me, especially this one. I will be calling you one of these days. Hopefully you can help me deal with my sissy gay faggotry and perhaps provide some advice about if I should come out to my wife and, if so, how I should do it.
Hugs & kisses,
cdCindy1
Feel free to arrange for a session anytime, cdCindy! I would be happy to provide what ever advice and encouragement I can!
Thanks for the reply Mistress Rachel. I will call you some time next week. Should email you first to arrange a day and time?
You only need to make an appointment if you want to make sure I’ll be free when you are. Otherwise, call whenever you like!